As I said in my previous post, as I prepared move to Baton Rouge this summer, I was scared of the major changes about to happen in my life. My whole life, I really have never liked change, and for me to move to a different city with completely new people, roommates I didn’t know very well, and a new school was a really big step for me. When I first applied to colleges, I only applied to two schools: LSU and ULL. I knew that I really didn’t want to stay in Lafayette even though I love my hometown so much. For months I tried convincing my best friends to come to LSU with me because I didn’t want to go alone, but everyone was firm in their decision to stay in Lafayette, so I decided that I was just going to go to ULL as well. I wasn’t very happy with this decision because I felt like I was settling instead of doing what was best for me. This idea of settling really started to bother me as time went on, and then one day when I was sitting in math class, I decided that I wasn’t going to settle for anyone else and I was going to make decisions for myself. So I emailed my mom when I was sitting in math class and said, “Hey mom, I kinda want to go to LSU dont kill me:)” Not very surprisingly, she emailed me back saying, “Is this an April’s fools joke???” She was totally freaked out (which I thought was kind of funny honestly haha), but she was so happy that I was doing what was best for me. By choosing to come to LSU, I was totally stepping out of my comfort zone, and honestly I was nervous that I had made the wrong decision until I actually moved here. In high school and for most of my life I made decisions based on other people because I didn’t want to upset anyone or I was afraid of the unknown, but now I realize that you can’t live life with “what ifs.”
The first week I was at LSU, I went through rush, which was also a really big step for me. I was always really shy, but going through rush, I couldn’t be shy. I had to step out of my comfort zone and not be afraid to talk to anyone. I think that this has really benefited me because, even though I still get nervous to open up to new people, I have “come out of my shell” I guess you could say, so much. I was blessed with two roommates who are the most outgoing people I have ever met, and I look up to them so much because of how easily they can talk to total strangers or how easily they can become friends with anyone. Everyday I try and push myself to talk to more people and open up because I know that I will grow so much if I push myself out of my comfort zone.